yep

this is ma last post and then deleting my blog, i've deleted my facey page aswell just sick of so called friends lying straight to my face, sick of people walkin all over me so thats it im done with it all im changin everythin bout me, im movin away to get away from this shit WA here i come!

so called friend

im sorry but im gonna go to town on here,

the past week i have learnt one of the closest people to me has lied straight to my fucking face! im not gonna name names cause that isnt right but i seriously thought i knew them better! .... obviously i was wrong!
the past couple of months ive basically spent hiding and ive cut off so many people because of stupid bullshit, now i always wondered how i was continuously being found? well now i know and it was one of the people i thought would NEVER rat me out!

DISAPPOINTING!

i really hate it at the moment, everytime i speak to some one or i get asked a question, im always like why do they ask? and i question everything.... its starting to get exhausting!

back to square one....

so im not working again, appearantly im too dumb for their company! i have a month to find a job or else its no car, house, overdue bills and ill be in a load of trouble.

Trying to stay off the depression path but it all seems to happen so easily, i get down so easy and with no car i cant just go for a drive to clear my head....

I really cant figure out what i wanna do as far as work goes, its like id be happy doing anything but if i do just anything i wont be happy?

Cant win!

im back!

its been a while since my last post! but im still alive!

I started my new job, its ok. im still tryin to get my head round it all.... but at the same time keep everything on track cause ive felt a bit lost this past week.

Maybe its just the change in work thats thrown me or maybe cause its so far from my normal surroundings? dunno ive found myself to be a bit 'homesick' this past few days, i really miss my roxy dog, but shes probably better off staying where she is at the second.... I guess i just miss my freedom of having a car n doing what i want! i gotta save n get some wheels again!

Part of me wonders if its the fear of change or trying too hard to make people happy thats got me down in the dumps? All the poeple at work dont seem to get along which makes it harder to find my place in the crowd, anyways im gonna stop rambling just needed to vent

yay

sorry i havent put a blog up for a while, had a lot going on but i wont bore you with the negatives.

I finally got a job so i can get back on my feet, and finally get a working car. i dont start till this week though but i hope i enjoy it.

this week

This weeks been a fun week, firstly started my week with the little 'tyre incident' but it got a bit better from there. I borrowed mummys car tuesday and i went and applied for a few jobs and i had lunch with that boyfriend of mine :) and finished of my day with a drive to belgrave and dinner with my mum. wednesday i had a alright day as well! ( i was quite shocked nothin happened by this stage) i just hung at home and spent my day job hunting , doing some house work and of course hanging out with my puppy dog cause he never goes to work if his mums home haha im slowly turning him into a mums boy =D.
I had knox shifts on thursday & friday which turned out to be chaos! lol but it was good, and my weekend never really changes i walked my doggys and had breaky with my parents and then finally caught up with kiera! and sundays! i love lazy sundays! they are by far the best day of my week cause i get to lounge about with my man!
Im feeling alot more calm this week i had a shitty start to my week but it seems to have been ok since.

-Ash.

lost cause

Two more tires got slashed on my car last night, as well as my boyfriend and his brothers cars got done as well.... so in the past week my tires have been slashed twice! pretty confident we know who it is but i don't understand why they wont just leave me alone and move on!?

luckily enough the boys cars were insured, mine on the other hand not so lucky =S

I don't understand why people can be so nasty, i have no job, no money,huge debt, i live out of a fucking basket! and a non-working car! isn't that enough? i don't see why this person has to continue to torment me!? i moved away for a reason! I've cut ties with all my old friends for a reason! i put a fucking restraining order on you for a fucking reason! just leave me alone!!!!

Thanks to this person i have no car, no way of getting around and no money to fix my car! i am 100% completely screwed! congratulations you have succeeded at fucking my life up now go away and leave me the hell alone!

Sorry for being so blunt, but i really really needed to get that off my chest!